May 15

It’s your birthday and I’ve been aware of it all day, yesterday and the day before. I thought about you all day today. I couldn’t help it. My desire to make a connection with you again is constant. I’ve never been as close to someone as I was with you. There are days where my heart reminds me of the comforting feeling of the warm connection I felt with you. 

Every May 15th is an excuse for me to reach out to you because I want that feeling back.  

I thought about wishing you happy birthday today and then I remembered the love I thought we had was more fantasy than reality, so I wrote this note instead.