Last weekend I called an Uber, the driver arrived 7 minutes later, I stepped into the car and the driver asked me “where are you going?”. “Just look at your Uber app.”, I replied (just kidding I’m not that big of a jerk). I told the driver where I needed to go, I sat back in my set then I asked myself the same question – where am I going from here?
So much has changed in my life during the last few months. After arriving at my current location without a return ticket I realized one major difference in my life. I’ve decided to take on the very necessary task of identifying, facing and overcoming the faceless monster I’ve been running from for so many years. This monster has haunted me for far too long. I’m no longer running from what I’ve spent years trying to avoid. I’ve run out of places to run to, questions remain unanswered and there are no answers at the bottom of the empty bottles of scotch I left lying around. I’m facing my fears now, even if it means being vulnerable in a room full of people. I’m done running! I’m not leaving here until I put an end to this monster. I’m too old to still be afraid of monsters.
After I’m done with this task, I’ll continue putting roots down here and create a home for myself here. I’m no longer running. This time I’m headed home.
“Your vision will become clear when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens .”
– Carl Jung